TA NGATA?

ta ngata uman
ta pabago-bago ana isip
arog kana pabago-bagong panahom

ta ngata kaya
ta ana puso nagbabago
nalilingaw, nag-gugurang
ana mga tawo

ta ngata iba na
ana kaisipan saka mga plano
diri nagtutunong
sa kakaisip, kakabago

mala ng pagal
hanggang kuno migaka-agko
katapusan ana kapagalan

ta ngata ta
natatapos ana gab-i
pag nag-abot ana aldow

ta ngata na sira
nagbabago, nabubuhay
nagpapa ingalo, nabubuhay
pa nanggad

ararom na rarupon
ana salog na ararom
arog kana buhay
malang rarom, malang sakit

nang matapilok at mapaso ang dila

(isang pagbabalik tanaw sa isang kwento ng pag-ibig...)

unashamed love

You're calling me to lay aside
Worries of my day
To quiet down my busy mind
And find a hiding place
To sing worthy
You're so worthy

Open up my heart and
Let my spirit worship You
Open up my mouth and
Let a song of praise come forth
Worthy, You are worthy!

Have a child-like faith
Have my honest praise
Have my unashamed love
Have a holy life
Have my sacrifice
Have my unashamed love

Worthy, we cry worthy!!!

(the carrier single of james cotterell's album. been so in love with this song ever since it reached my ears, which was just last christmas. its unique melody which is very much like a host of angels' hallelujah chorus gripped my heart intensely. and i keep praying for this kind of love and faith!)

Angels Wish

(We know things that the angels ‘long to look into’.)

Was God smiling
When He spoke the words
That made the world
And did He cry about the flood
What does God’s voice sound like
When He sings, when He’s angry
These are just a few things
That the angels have on me

Well / Still, I can’t fly
At least not yet
I’ve got no halo on my head
And I can’t even start to picture Heaven’s beauty
But I’ve been shown the Savior’s love
The grace of God has raised me up
To show me things the angels long to look into
And I know things
The angels only wish they knew

I have seen the dark and desperate place
Where sin will take you
I’ve felt loneliness and shame
And I have watched the blinding light of grace
Come breaking through with a sweetness
Only tasted by the forgiven and redeemed

And someday I’ll sit down with my angel friends
Up in Heaven
They’ll tell me about creation
And I’ll tell them a story of grace

(sinulat at kinanta ni Steven Curtis Chapman, isang bagong paborito ko ngayon at mainstay ng aking mp3 player, hehehe... wait until you hear its great melody and unique na interpretation, not to mention its insightful truth. i think it had a powerful impact, too, when i used it as part of my expository preaching of Zechariah 1-6. yeah, it is one to six!)

Crossing the Bridge When There Is One

Dear Hassan,

So is this it after some time… is this it?!

Is this the bridge worth crossing now? Is this what is meant by a test of time? That something which grows stronger at the test of time?

Is this the miracle of God? Is this what they call ‘leap of faith’? Is this what they call ‘courage’? Is this what they call ‘love’?

How can it be that understanding and reasons are elusive? How can I ever realize that I have loved you without knowing clearly why and how? How can life be this different and hard? Yet, be joyful and exciting as well.

There is neither assurance nor tangibles between us even as I write now. There is not even a hint of what is in your heart and mind. But I pursue this leap of faith, this grasp of courage, and this miracle of love and living!

I pray for wisdom and neither confusion nor fear…

~Hadassah ;-)


Impressions

That you have a clear mandate from the Lord and you know it well. And there are also specific ones. May you be able to clarify and obey them.

That part of the mandate is God’s clear guidance on your future family. May the gracious God grant you the best wife, one who will be your match and soulmate, one whom you will serve the Lord with, one who will be the best mother of your children.

That you have to take courage and continue to take that leap of faith. Take courage to open your heart and receive His miracle of love.

(ika-sampung araw ng unang buwan ng taong ito po ito naisulat... kasama ang buwan sa kanyang paglabas. ito'y isang mayamang pagpapahayag ng saloobin sa naising maging makatotohanan at may katapatan sa sarili lamang.)

watch out!

for the coming out of the long-awaited 'the face and the violin' of this blogger ;-)
coming soon, i hope really soon!!!

the path of the rainbow...

Okay, LORD!

I'm ready to face this life that I have now for good. I'm ready now (as I always dream of), to be single for life! Just don't allow to grow in me the heart of an old maid ;-)... what i meant by that, you already know!

Instead, I pray that you would fill me with that great and overflowing joy, overflowing from Your Throne of grace... that humility, too, as well as the servanthood of Jesus... the boldness, too, from the Holy Spirit... coupled with Your wisdom and grace!

So, it's exactly a year now when you took him away from me. With the only desire to obey and honor You, I let go of him despite all the pains. It was never an easy path... well, so narrow, the one less travelled and never familiar. that path of brokenness, groaning, and giving away... to the point of death!

But, it's that same path towards healing and restoration, as well. that same path where the rainbow used to appear right after a great storm. that path towards life and towards Him, who is more and bigger than life itself.

(01 december 2K5, 1845 hrs, at frio mixx ali mall, phils)

SAIL ON

leaves falling
eastern wind blowing
seasons changing
the coming and going

love divine
grace moments
WALANG HANGGAN
abide, stay

newness, freshness
shedding off the old skin
pruning, purging
behold, the NEW has come!

changes
move on
rest and linger
TRUST!

i'll never be the same again

since this day
the 10th of the first month of this new year
this God-given time and space

since this day
when the staffcon culminated
with these profession of faith

i'll never be the same again

faith
declaration
trust

i'll never be the same again

since this day
when i finally met him
after almost two years

hope
redemption
rejoicing

i'll never be the same again

because of
LOVE!

masiram na pagbalik tan-aw sa nakaagi (what homecoming really means)

sa wakas, nakauli man nanggad ako... salamat sa alawig na bakasyon kin iisipon, pero sa kamatoran sana la palan kaatlukot. matood lang na nag-iiba ana pananaw pag nasa baloy mo ika. agko kakaibang pagmate, buko sanang pananaw. agko naiibang karanasan, buko sanang kamatean.

dipisil ispilingon ana mga bagay-bagay pag arog kadi ana kamutangan. agko naiibang karanasan, kamatean, saka pananaw. amo adi nagiginibo kana baloy. baloy, usad na lugar na nagtatao sa ibang paglaom, ibang kakusugan, ibang kaogmahan.

(amo di so juan carlos, usad na dahilan kin ngata ako dapat na makauli... iya ana regalo kana Diyos sadto pinsan ko saka sa agon niya. siya ana itinaong kaogmahan sa mga kagurangan, kahubenan, saka mga kaiginan kana pamilya niya... siyempre, gwapo yan ta inaanak ko baya, hehehe...)