casting lots

a psalmist or a poet of the ancient times once said,
'the LORD is the portion of my inheritance and my cup;
You support my lot.
the lines have fallen to me in pleasant places;
Indeed, my heritage is beautiful to me.'

therefore, i casted my lots and all to HIm alone.

we don't have salary today, as usual... it will be a delayed one again... never known when and how... and it's never uncommon.

i remain a volunteer worker who receives whatever it is worth receiving for my day to day sustenance. but most of all, it is because i have never been left hungry and needy. i can never call myself poor, in that sense.

let me recount just this week my fullness of heart and 'tummy'... in fact, i am still gaining weight despite of this seeming 'lack' or 'wanting'.
wednesday, ate phoebe sent baked mac and a bunch of pears, ate sha bought a bunch of oranges
thursday morning, ate bing came and brought pandesal, noodles and peanut butter
thursday lunch was a feast for evangel's goodbye party, it was such a huge feast!
friday, twins josh and john's fifth birthday, so we had spaghetti and a rich chocolate cake
today, welcome feasting for mutya who just came back from her east asia tour and vacation
today's dinner was a celebration feast again for ate libay's accomplishment (beating the deadline for her papers, hehehe)... a free dinner at the max's and window shopping at gateway.

whew! so am i really poor in this sense? heheehee... i may not have money but will never lack in anything. how can that be? i may never understand it so as to be able to articulate and answer that question.

but learning from one man of long time ago,
'not that i speak from want, for i have learned to be content in whatever circumstances i am. i know how to get along with humble means, and i also know how to live in prosperity; in any and every circumstance i have learned the secret of bing filled and going hungry, both of having abundance and suffering need. i can do all things through HIM who strengthens me.'

You have made my lot secure... surely, i have a delightful inheritance...