it never is

if you ever think that this is but easy for me, it never is!
not at all.

if you ever think that this is fine with me, it never is!
not at all.

this path is elusive to understanding
much more clarity...

this path is never free of fear and trembling
much more uncertainty...

don't ever think that this is alright with me... it never is!

this clear paradox!

('i am not alright'- a cut from sanctus real's album, that is
guess that's quite similar to this cry, to this handle
a mere coincidence? a mere circumstantial connivance?
a conspiracy out of nowhere... a conspiracy from on high...)