ctu n la

ayan, nasa ctu na tayo...

24 stands for the longest 24 hours or day in the life of people looking after the national security of a nation. since limang seasons ito so far, then it means, limang araw pa lang ito as documented by ctu, hehehe...

top 10 na gusto ko sa 24

1. very intellectually stimulating - mahirap mahulaan ang plot and story, pero siguradong magugustuhan mo

2. mas madrama ang life ng mga casts, kaya hindi boring, unlike 'alias'

3. hindi limiting ang ways ni jack, his goals are clear and focused so he delivers, di siya nawawalan ng options to resolve the issues at hand

4. madaming good reflections on leadership styles nina palmer, keeler, logan, buchanan at madami pang iba...

5. palagi akong napapa-reflect sa reality that the real decisions are done when one is under much stressful and critical life-and-death situations, real decisions that are clearly reflecting the self

6. good venue to get to know the outcasts and unpopular as they come in the forms of marginalized or evil terrorists, who are, definitely, not misrepresented

7. mas madami at magkakaiba ang characters na pwedeng magturo ng maraming bagay sa iyo

8. mejo all of life ang pag-reveal at pag-build ng concerns ng mga casts - family dynamics, cultural, political, economics, etc.

9. mabilis ang mga pangyayari

10. madaming kingdom values

mas malawak na reflections later on...

season 5!

bakit kailangang pumasok sa eksena ang mga intsik?

marahil ay dahil naubos na nilang mailantad ang lahat na maaaring maging kaaway ng kanilang kapangyarihan at maging panganib sa pangkalahatang seguridad...

simula sa mga assassins, sa mga muslim na terorista, sa mga komunistang ruso, at maging sa mga kaaway sa loob ng kapangyarihan...

syempre pa, eh dapat me bago. kaya naman, pumasok na sa eksena ang mga intsik ngayong season 6! waahhh...

if you know what i am talking about, then we are friends!

frends at klasmeyts tayo sa klasrum na sikat sa tawag na bente kwarto. o di ba, titsers natin sina chloe, tony, bill, audrey, kim, michelle, nina, chase, david palmer, mike novick, aaron, john keeler, charles logan, curtis at syempre pa si JACK bauer kasama ng mga terorista...

at ang laboratory natin ay ang ctu la, waaahhh!

but seriously, i am into tracing some motiffs of deep leadership characters and vocational calling in this series. for those who are going through some life or mid-life transitions, hmmm, this is something really worth looking into...

itutuloy po...

crucible

*container for melting something
METALLURGY. a heat-resistant container in which ores or metals are melted

*bottom of furnace
METALLURGY. the hollow part at the bottom of a furnace where molten metal collects

*ordeal
a severe trial or ordeal

*testing circumstances
a place or set of circumstances where people or things are subjected to forces that test them and often make them change

a long list

given a chance to account my life, i can say without a bat of an eyelash, that i am one of the world's richest persons.

the honor is so much as to have been given the pleasure of the intangibles such as seeing what is there to see, finding meaning in life.

one clear intangible is the treasure of friends, both male and female, young and old.

if i may start my accounting with this long list of great women in my life...

inay kikay
mama
NCS

joey
reena
reylynne

dahlia
bebe
lorah

mutya
ging
yvet
di

flow
jinglet
lynn

shiela
jules
judith - a certain misis salamat

belen
ayneth
amor

ayet
joy
myrna
djoy

minette
myrna

olive
aking
jenny
loida

aque
nel
ailen
lally

to be continued...

avatar

*an incarnation of a Hindu deity in human or animal form, especially one of the incarnations of Vishnu such as Rama and Krishna

*embodiment of something - somebody who embodies, personifies, or is the manifestation of an idea or concept

*an image of a person in a virtual reality - computing a movable three-dimensional image that can be used to represent somebody in cyberspace, for example, an internet user

(from an english encarta dictionary)

motiff of reversal

tatlong uno
1.25, 1.50, 1.75
tatlong uno
tatlong himala

kahirapan
pighati
decision to quit
to run away

pagtakas
pagtakbo
pagtalikod
pagsuko

sa mundong hindi akin
bawal, di ako tanggap
second class citizen
second rate opinion

mahirap maging dayuhan
mahirap tanggihan ng karapatan
maging kakaiba at di kanais-nais
isang outsider sa mundong ginagalawan

but when all else failed
then you say otherwise
nothing else than
trusting beyond the self

why did i get those marks
undeserved, unworthy
but a real pleasant surprise
a real motiff of reversal

so what is the point
point of reflection
point of reference
than the point of grace

paradox, indeed!
real and true!
sweet surrender
sweet mercy flowing

smile

concealing
the agonies of the soul

misleading
the hoof marks of pain

revealing
the great joys of the heart

uncovering
such peace beyond understanding

paradox!

then there will be
imprints of such joy and peace
amidst all agonies and pains
there is no other way

sheer grace and mercy
mere speck of dust and dew
across a wide horizon
recipient of such amazing love

oh smile, how small and simple
yet, profound and able
to reveal, to conceal
deep mysteries and truths

joey

you came, the One-ordained moment
dinner under star-studded expanse
more than a candle-lit hush-hush
beyond words, across time

love expressed along the tangibles
creatively prepared meals for heart
one great chef for a night of tears
toasts, laughters, goodbyes, memories

birthdays, thirty years and growing
hellos, five years overflowing
but now, time for leave-taking
years and seas across mounting

silent retreats, profound thoughts
connections to the Maker
the One will see us through
these moments of making

Henri Nouwen, Elizabeth Elliot
transformations, social justice
spirituality and solitude
we will remain, bonded

i will... until the end
accountable, partners
i commit, will remain
will always be blessed

will ever be grateful
paalam joey
dear sister and friend
i will never be

never will be
the same again

joey...
intsik na merong
pusong pinoy
kaibigan, kasabwat

mababang kalooban
pusong dakila
bata ngunit matanda
babaeng kakaiba

malalim mag-isip
di pangkaraniwang kaluluwa
dakila ang tumawag sa iyo
tunay ngang dakila!!!

silence, solitude
prayers, tears
listen, heart
hush, my soul

a hundred and one

mukhang marami pa
ang pwedeng magbago
and dapat baguhin

mabubuting bagay
maiinam na asal
katangi-tanging katangian

kabutihan
kagalakan
kapayapaan

pag-ibig
pagpapahalaga
pagbubukas loob

pananampalataya
pagsunod
pagkalinga

paglilingkod
pag-angat ng kapakanan
ng iba kaysa sarili

katarungan
kabanalan
kaluwalhatian

sa Iyo po lamang
higit sa lahat
Siya nawa.

the hundredth time

none other than
a summer getaway
supposedly

but turned into
a real sunny outlook
instead

newness, freshness
happy disposition
liberation

metamorphosis
cheery me
freedom

haircut
get-up
lifestyle

U2 in another landslide at the recent grammies...

beyond the 32nd and time

this is more than what a broken earthen jar can ever ask for and imagine - to be an unfinished work of grace and a recipient of so much love... such gifts been so lavishedly endowed on a poor soul like me... on her 32nd!


the 31st...


there was a time that I was so afraid to ask questions... many questions that are hard and even answerless! but one thing is sure, one thing is certain. i am contented with life and that i can die anytime. the Lord has been good to me the past three decades.

i guess, i know now what it is to have JOY in the work God tasked me to do - to bloom where He planted me. i have lived a full life at 30. Yes, i do!

HE

He came to me with the most wonderful tenderness. He was afraid and I was afraid, but there it was, that openness; he was as delicate and fragile and beautiful as a flower, the blossom trembling in full bloom...
(Victoria Freeman)

He poured so gently and naturally into my life
like a batter into a bowl of batter.
Honey into a jar of honey.
The clearest water sinking into sand.
(Justine Sydney)

it never is

if you ever think that this is but easy for me, it never is!
not at all.

if you ever think that this is fine with me, it never is!
not at all.

this path is elusive to understanding
much more clarity...

this path is never free of fear and trembling
much more uncertainty...

don't ever think that this is alright with me... it never is!

this clear paradox!

('i am not alright'- a cut from sanctus real's album, that is
guess that's quite similar to this cry, to this handle
a mere coincidence? a mere circumstantial connivance?
a conspiracy out of nowhere... a conspiracy from on high...)